Enjoying my training..

Last November 29, 2010, I started my first duty as an OJT in a company here in Cebu. It was Monday back then, a holiday but since the company observes the American calendar, they celebrate holiday's opposite to the Philippine calendar. It was so refreshing for me since it's my first OJT where I actually have my own PC. My first OJT was located somewhere in Punta Princesa, Labangon and I was in charged of the filing. It was very hard for me since I'm an Information Technology student and I do it manually. It was the most tiring work I ever made in my entire life. I hate filing and paperworks, I must say, but thanks, I still enjoyed my first OJT with the help of my supervisor and the tellers (it was a bank actually). They made my stay there a memorable one. I can't forget the free snacks in the afternoon and the funny moments with the tellers. I stayed there for approximately 4 months. Since then, I got busy and I forgot to communicate to them but they are still in my contacts. I'm just shy and kinda hesitant to give them a private message. 

Let's go back to my present training. I was accepted as an OJT in a growing BPO/ Web-site developer company (due to restricted orders, I intended to hide the company's name). It was good. The place gives me a new flavor and the tasks I'm doing is really related to my course. My supervisor were very kind and understanding. I'm a SEO by the way at that company. I do stuff to rank a certain website. As of now we are focusing on link-building (blog commenting, blog submission, directory submission, and classified submission). We also do ranking reports. 

So far, so good. I'm enjoying every second of my stay at that company and I'm very happy that I saw a company where I can used my skills and course.

Samahan ng Malalamig ang Pasko member!

This year, I will be celebrating my Christmas as a single person. For the past 2 years, I'm celebrating my Christmas with my girlfriend(which I mentioned in my previous posts) who eventually now, my ex-girlfriend. Even if she's gone in my arms, I'm still happy because she is happy and in a good condition. Me, I'm still recovering from the pain but with the help of my friends and family, I'm now okay than the previous months.

SMP or Samahan ng Malalamig ang Pasko was the common title of the people who don't have relationships(special) especially on Christmas but I don't eventually consider myself one of them, why? because I have my family and friends. They make my Christmas warmer than ever. It doesn't mean that if you don't have any girlfriend or boyfriend, you will have a sad Christmas or having one will guarantee a happy and lively Christmas, it's not. Christmas is a time of being happy because Christ, our savior, was born. It's His birthday and the main focus of this celebration is Him. Even if with or without a girlfriend or a boyfriend.

Have a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone!

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Christmas Party

It's officially 4 days before Christmas and I'm kinda excited. Many gifts, great foods, gatherings, and most especially, long holiday but for this year, It will not be in a long holiday since I have to be on duty for my on the job training. Last December 18,2010, We, with my classmates, celebrated our last Christmas Party since some of us will have our commencement on March 2011. It's a triple dilemma for me because it's also the birthday of my mom and the Christmas Party also of the company where I served my training.  I chose to be on the school Christmas Party. I asked permission to my mom and to the company also. I chose to be with my classmates since it's the last and also, I spent the whole afternoon with my mom. Even if I'm not on the "celebration" itself for her birthday, still, i love my mom. She knows that.

The party started at 6:00pm sharp but some of my classmates didn't arrive yet. So, our class president, decided to start the party even without them because majority of us are already hungry(including me..hehe). Compare to last year's party, It was the unusual party ever. It's kinda gloomy and silent. We just ate, have some chitchats like the ordinary days, taking some stolen shots and laugh out loud on those unpleasant faces taken. For me, it's a normal party. Not so thrilling and not so fun. But I'm still happy seeing majority of my friends. They, for a fact, completed every single day of my life.

It's also the first party ever where I cried like a child. My "manita" gave me an unpleasant undergarment and I was so very upset because they have taken me a video where I'm in the act of opening the said gift, wrapped with 3 boxes and a round shape tissue. I can't explain what I feel because of that but I don't have hard feelings for my manita. They explained what happened after that and eventually she gave me my real gift. I learned some things on that incident and I will keep that forever.

After the party, around 8:00 o'clock in the evening, we had our post-party celebration at Fuente Rotonda. It's a tradition for our batch to have the post-party at the Fuente where we will have some relaxing time, watching the big Christmas tree and sat on the bermuda grasses. We pose for some pictures, lots of pictures. It was enjoyable. I enjoyed the post-party even if I was very tired.

I hope someday, It will happen again even if we will have our separate lives after we graduated our college years..

Go Batch 2010-2011 of ACT- Information Technology!..

P.S.

I will post some of the pictures from our Christmas Party on my next post...

Practicing Photography via a small digital camera...

Photography is very close to my heart since I love to take pictures and also my ex girlfriend's influence. I want to take still pictures and love to hear nice compliments from the people who saw my pictures. Since I was a kid, I'm dreaming to have my personal camera. Well, my uncle from Australia gave us an SLR camera but at that time, I don't know how to manipulate such kind of a camera. When I graduated my high school years, I asked my uncle (the cousin of my father) to gave me a digital camera. He gave me one. It was bought in Japan and was made in the year of 2003. It small and it has less functionality but I still gave thanks. Yes, I already have my camera for 1 year now but my camera is deteriorating now. I was sad about it but I can still manage to take pictures but the quality is not that good anymore. I'm planning to have a DSLR (digital single lens reflex camera)if eventually I get a job after graduation and pursue my ambition of becoming a professional photographer.

Here are my sample pictures taken from my digital camera:

Artificial flower taken using macro setting

my pet Potchie taken using automatic setting

Gibo 2010 Baller taken during brownout and using manual setting

My Brother's hand taken with the use of illusion lens

SUMILON ISLAND: Quiet yet amazing!

Last summer of 2010 (April 2010), I went to Oslob,Cebu for the second time around. Oslob is the province of my relatives on the father side. Oslob is so refreshing for me since I grew up in the city. The air is clean and the people are very nice, friendly and smiling. Oslob also is the province where my ex girlfriend resides that's why I was curious about the place.

I traveled from the city via a small car called "multicab". It was my uncle (my father's cousin) who drove the car. We traveled approximately 2 hours and 30 minutes since it has less traffic compared to the city. I stayed at Barangay Tan-awan where my uncle also resides. Barangay Tan-awan is far from the municipality or main barangay of Oslob which is the barangay Poblacion. After Barangay Tan-awan is the barangay Bangcogon where the relatives of my father resides. It's a walking distance actually. I enjoyed the scenery of Oslob but the lifestyle of the Oslobanons are so simple that why I came to appreciate more the place.

My auntie, my uncle's sister, invited me to go to Sumilon Island which I only heard from my parents. We ride in to a pump boat or what you called in bisaya as "bangka". Since my auntie know the guy from the "bangka" so we ride in for free(hehehe..since we are also relatives). When I reached the island the only word I say was "WOW!"..The island is so great. The sand, the blue waters..everything! but unfortunately, we didn't reached the top of the island since it has a payment for head but the allowed public place is still beautiful.

The above pictures were taken by me from the trip I had in the island. I only allowed to take at the allowed public place.

The day I came out of the closet....

First of all I would like to say that it's not easy to be me. I have to hide what really inside me and who I really am. I belong to a society called "third sex". Yes, I'm one of them and it's hard for me to hide it from my family. I've been carrying the burden almost 13 years until such day I gain courage to tell to my mother what inside me. With the help of the breakup ,with my girlfriend which I state in my previous post that I had a hidden relationship with her, I decided to tell my mother that I'm a lesbian. Yes, I said to her at last with tears in my eyes flowing, I can't imagine I said the thing that I hide almost 13 years. My mother was disappointed since I'm her only daughter but she accepted me.

I love you mom! Thanks for accepting me and for caring for me...

How did I cope up with the heartbreak....

Having such a heartbreak was the most difficult thing I ever encountered in my 20 years of existence in this world. When you know you give all your love, trust and loyalty to that person and yet you have been junked and was stupidly abandoned. Yes, it was disgusting when all of your friends are mocking you and saying that it's my fault. I have to accept what they are saying even if they really don't know the story behind. When my girlfriend broke up with me, it was in the middle of my thesis project and a week after that, I have to prepare for the proposal hearing. She's my inspiration but what if that inspiration broke your heart and mash it like a potato?. How can you cope up with the situation?.

The first thing I did was to accept the truth. Accept that she was gone and she will never coming back to me again. I diverted my attention to computer games, hanging most of the time with my friends, watching T.V all day long without any bothering who's giving me a phone call or text messages or what. Yes, it suffice the feeling for a while. Eventually, I get bored and back to my routine. I contacted her and told her that I want to be her friend. At first, she don't like the idea but my deepest sincerity made her agreed to the set-up. We constantly exchange messages through phone without the knowledge of her new lover. I don't have plans on getting her again because I know she's happy with her new lover. I wanted to test myself on how can I move-on without even disconnecting the communication lines between us. I wanted to move-on without even bothering of what will I do if I will see her or what will I do if I get to see a message from her. I want to be a person who's gonna say, "Hey!, I have a message from her" but the feeling is normal. It's just like your getting a message from a stranger or a not so close friend. That's my way of getting rid out of this feeling. Yes, I admit, it's very hard but day by day, the feeling (love) subsides and for me it's effective.

Second that I did was to burn all the her remembrance especially the pictures. For me, it's a sign of letting your ex go and be happy with her present. It's not eventually of significance but for me, it will help a brokenhearted person to move-on.

Lastly I did was to make my self busy. It's the most effective way of forgetting one's painful experience. When you're busy, you don't think of others only the work you're doing and what will you do to accomplish the tasks or work.

As of now, I'm in the middle chapter of moving on. It's not simple but with the help of my family and friends, LOVE gives another meaning for me...

Make your day busy....

It's been the MAJOR heartbreak of my youth...

I'm 20 and I'm not that typical teenager who hangs around the corner all by myself. Yes, I'm a loner but I hang out with my friends and family especially when there are occasions. When I was in my 1st year college, I was 17 at that time, I met a girl through text. Let's call her "mine"(that our endearment..). I met her through a wrong sent by her friend.At first, I was hesitant to trust them (her with a couple of her friends) because I'm that kind of person who usually have doubts on strangers. We had our communication through SMS and sometimes phone calls. I have no special feelings for her at that time but on September 2007, I had the courage to court her even if we are kilometers away from each other (she's from the province and I'm living in the city) and eventually, she accepted the courtship. We got officially on the 20th of that month with the same year also. She's 16 at that time and currently on her last year in the secondary level. We were happy. I convince her to have her college degree in the city so that we are near with each other and she agree with the plan. She also wanted to be near with me. Days and months past, she graduated her high school and me reached the second year of my college. She didn't pursue college after she graduated that's why I felt so depressed but she said she's gonna rest for quite some time. After 1 year of being an out of school youth, she decided to pursue her studies. She went in the city, enrolled in a state college and lived with her auntie. I was so happy since she was very near and I can easily see her especially on weekends. At that time we are in the 2 years of our relationship.

We are very happy seeing each other. We usually hang-out at our favorite fast food chain (the M sign) and go to mall to develop some photos (since she's a photographer in the making). We have fights, yes, every relationship has that. I consider that healthy relationship since your conveying to your partner what are your differences but the good thing about our fight is that, we don't make it so long. It's just 1 day and we get to resolve things. We are like that. We usually see each other if our schedule can meet up. I'm happy with that even if she didn't allow me to be introduce to her friends. Yes, we had a hidden relationship because we know for a fact that same sex relationship is not accepted by the society(half of them only knows the feeling).Until the date of her birthday, September 3, we had a big fight(but for me, it's not that big) but her pride swallow her. She broke up with me and I was so disgusted by the reason. I hate it. I love her so much but she wasted it. After 2 days, I'm hoping to recover the relationship but to my surprise, she had already a replacement for me. I cried and cried. I force myself to focus on my thesis for the defense but it's so hard for me. I wear a fake smile to hide my pain.

Since then, I keep all the pain. I bear every second of seeing her with another. Seeing her saying "i love you" to someone on her facebook account and seeing their sweet pictures. To date, it's now 3 months since she left me but I remain as her true friend. I'm hoping to find someone who can make her promises true and can eventually say "I LOVE YOU" truly.

About Keyboard Pen

 This blog typically describes my life experiences, my travels and opinions on things involving my youth and how it affect my entire being. Basically, it involves all about me and the way I live my life on a day to day basis. How I solve hindrances and outcome all the challenges that I encountered.

This is my 5th blog. I lose my 4 blogs because I can't access my account. I started blogging when I was still in my secondary level. I was 3rd year and a friend introduce me the concept of blogging. He is now a certified blogger and me, when I graduated my high school, I eventually stop my blogging. I was focus to do school works. I really wanted to begin my blogging in my college so started to open another account when I was in my second year college. I named it as "My Keyboard Pen" but I also forgot to maintain it due to school works again.When I got my personal computer at home, I have all the idea of doing blogging again but the fun of hanging out at the social networking sites made my idea static and eventually lead to the realization of not starting another blog again.

When I reached my last semester of my college level, I was hired as an OJT of a SEO company here in Cebu. I was amazed by the way they wanted the websites to be rank and how marketing through internet is made. I was attracted again by the concept of blogging and here it is. My 5th blog, "My Keyboard Pen" blog.