Having such a heartbreak was the most difficult thing I ever encountered in my 20 years of existence in this world. When you know you give all your love, trust and loyalty to that person and yet you have been junked and was stupidly abandoned. Yes, it was disgusting when all of your friends are mocking you and saying that it's my fault. I have to accept what they are saying even if they really don't know the story behind. When my girlfriend broke up with me, it was in the middle of my thesis project and a week after that, I have to prepare for the proposal hearing. She's my inspiration but what if that inspiration broke your heart and mash it like a potato?. How can you cope up with the situation?.
The first thing I did was to accept the truth. Accept that she was gone and she will never coming back to me again. I diverted my attention to computer games, hanging most of the time with my friends, watching T.V all day long without any bothering who's giving me a phone call or text messages or what. Yes, it suffice the feeling for a while. Eventually, I get bored and back to my routine. I contacted her and told her that I want to be her friend. At first, she don't like the idea but my deepest sincerity made her agreed to the set-up. We constantly exchange messages through phone without the knowledge of her new lover. I don't have plans on getting her again because I know she's happy with her new lover. I wanted to test myself on how can I move-on without even disconnecting the communication lines between us. I wanted to move-on without even bothering of what will I do if I will see her or what will I do if I get to see a message from her. I want to be a person who's gonna say, "Hey!, I have a message from her" but the feeling is normal. It's just like your getting a message from a stranger or a not so close friend. That's my way of getting rid out of this feeling. Yes, I admit, it's very hard but day by day, the feeling (love) subsides and for me it's effective.
Second that I did was to burn all the her remembrance especially the pictures. For me, it's a sign of letting your ex go and be happy with her present. It's not eventually of significance but for me, it will help a brokenhearted person to move-on.
Lastly I did was to make my self busy. It's the most effective way of forgetting one's painful experience. When you're busy, you don't think of others only the work you're doing and what will you do to accomplish the tasks or work.
As of now, I'm in the middle chapter of moving on. It's not simple but with the help of my family and friends, LOVE gives another meaning for me...
Make your day busy....
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