I'm 20 and I'm not that typical teenager who hangs around the corner all by myself. Yes, I'm a loner but I hang out with my friends and family especially when there are occasions. When I was in my 1st year college, I was 17 at that time, I met a girl through text. Let's call her "mine"(that our endearment..). I met her through a wrong sent by her friend.At first, I was hesitant to trust them (her with a couple of her friends) because I'm that kind of person who usually have doubts on strangers. We had our communication through SMS and sometimes phone calls. I have no special feelings for her at that time but on September 2007, I had the courage to court her even if we are kilometers away from each other (she's from the province and I'm living in the city) and eventually, she accepted the courtship. We got officially on the 20th of that month with the same year also. She's 16 at that time and currently on her last year in the secondary level. We were happy. I convince her to have her college degree in the city so that we are near with each other and she agree with the plan. She also wanted to be near with me. Days and months past, she graduated her high school and me reached the second year of my college. She didn't pursue college after she graduated that's why I felt so depressed but she said she's gonna rest for quite some time. After 1 year of being an out of school youth, she decided to pursue her studies. She went in the city, enrolled in a state college and lived with her auntie. I was so happy since she was very near and I can easily see her especially on weekends. At that time we are in the 2 years of our relationship.
We are very happy seeing each other. We usually hang-out at our favorite fast food chain (the M sign) and go to mall to develop some photos (since she's a photographer in the making). We have fights, yes, every relationship has that. I consider that healthy relationship since your conveying to your partner what are your differences but the good thing about our fight is that, we don't make it so long. It's just 1 day and we get to resolve things. We are like that. We usually see each other if our schedule can meet up. I'm happy with that even if she didn't allow me to be introduce to her friends. Yes, we had a hidden relationship because we know for a fact that same sex relationship is not accepted by the society(half of them only knows the feeling).Until the date of her birthday, September 3, we had a big fight(but for me, it's not that big) but her pride swallow her. She broke up with me and I was so disgusted by the reason. I hate it. I love her so much but she wasted it. After 2 days, I'm hoping to recover the relationship but to my surprise, she had already a replacement for me. I cried and cried. I force myself to focus on my thesis for the defense but it's so hard for me. I wear a fake smile to hide my pain.
Since then, I keep all the pain. I bear every second of seeing her with another. Seeing her saying "i love you" to someone on her facebook account and seeing their sweet pictures. To date, it's now 3 months since she left me but I remain as her true friend. I'm hoping to find someone who can make her promises true and can eventually say "I LOVE YOU" truly.
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